Well, we got home late this afternoon! It's good to be home and Amanda and I have both already crashed for a couple hours, each reveling in the comfort of our own beds.

We don't have answers exactly, but we are claiming something of a healing. Long story short is that the eeg's ran perfectly normal the entire time she was in there, which is something that's never happened before for her. Does it mean she could be well again until next week, next month or next year? Yup, pretty much any of those. But could she be well forever? The doctor claims it's unlikely, but it is a possibility.

So on one hand, we have no definitive answers--there is still definite scar tissue visible on the MRI's, so there is a likelihood that she will have seizures again at some point, and he has seen kids who have epilepsy have perfect eeg's. It's very interesting that in the past though, her eeg's, even when she was well controlled, were NEVER good. So this is new for her, and to me, it's significant.

But conventional medicine says we can't be 100% sure of anything because except for the scar tissue she's always had, there was just nothing to see--even when they stressed her body, she stayed stable. So we are claiming a victory, and moving on, and considering her healed at this moment, for this day. Mom will still worry--that's what Mom does well. Dad will remind me that each breath is a miracle and a blessing of it's own. That's what Dad does well. But for now, we will celebrate the peace and grace that this day brings and celebrate the wellness of 'now.'

My friends may be called on occasionally to remind me of that. :-) But for today, life goes on--just with a bit more thankfulness. For someone like me who likes things nice and tidy, with finite, clean beginnings and endings, I am certain that there are some God-shaped lessons for me in this. But as Amanda is fond of saying, "It's not all about you, Mom." So, for now we just thank Him and move on.

Thank you for praying us through this thing. I can't think that any of this looks this way for any other reason than because of the prayers you have tendered to Heaven's gate on our behalf. So thank you. I believe your prayers were heard, and effective. I'm still trying to understand all of it, but right here, I understand the peace that passes human understanding, and the grace that falls like rain. And I understand that I will never completely figure out our God.

Blessings,
Megan